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My Fear of Aging and How Do I Accept Change?
Throughout my life I have always feared change. I guess FEAR is not the right word. I should say I have avoided change to the best of my ability. I get comfortable in my life and when there are disruptions or hurdles to cross, it throws me off. These changes knock me out of my comfort zone. I know I am not alone. Surely most of us go through these times. I have a fear of aging. In the later years of life I prided myself on how I jumped right into the fire and dealt with the hurdles or lessons of life and came out on the other side…
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Messages From the Universe
Sitting down at the computer this morning, I was going to write a completely different post, but something happened today and I need to write it down so I don’t forget the feelings and the profound messages that have come to me. Sometimes I get these messages from the universe. Life Has Ups and Downs My life has been so happy! After two rocky, emotionally damaging marriages, I finally know who I am. I have been able to feel love, happiness and peace in my life! Learning to love myself was not easy but I have accomplished this and have learned how to take care of ME finally. I have…
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Surviving and The Trail of Ants
After my courageous self walked away from a 17 year marriage and survived, (read about it here) I had to start creating a new life. I was surviving! I changed my name back to my maiden name. That is who I was when I was happy. I needed to be that person again. I spent months recovering from my broken marriage. My children hated me because I refused to bad-mouth their father. They blamed me for the divorce. We Survived But we survived. My heart allowed itself to grieve. I threw myself into my job and my schooling and my children. And I survived. My ex was very angry. I…
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Abuse and Survival – Open Closets
I have been putting off writing my post about survival. It’s hard digging up past memories. But one of the goals of this blog is to share my experiences and maybe help someone else get one step closer to their own survival. It’s hard to say the word – Abuse. Abuse is abuse! A person doesn’t have to be hit, beaten, shoved or slapped in order to define their relationship as abuse. I was never hit, never beaten. But I do remember once being shoved across the bed during a very heated argument. I rationalized that away. Many Forms There is another form of abuse that is just as debilitating.…
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Surviving Abuse – My Lifeline
To continue the recent post about karate being my lifeline, I need to go back in time slightly. I was on the verge of just beginning the process of surviving abuse. Here’s how my lifeline found me. Sisterhood My Mom was part of a group of women who were spiritual. They not only meditated and searched for the meaning of life, but they were there for each other. It was a sisterhood. During some of my darkest moments, this group of women gathered around me and helped pull me back to reality. I can only describe them as being similar to, but more spiritual than the women in the movie,…
EMPOWERMENT, TRAVEL AND AGING GRACEFULLY
