After my courageous self walked away from a 17 year marriage and survived,  (read about it here)  I had to start creating a new life. I was surviving!   I changed my name back to my maiden name. That is who I was when I was happy. I needed to be that person again. I spent months recovering from my broken marriage. My children hated me because I refused to bad-mouth their father. They blamed me for the divorce. We Survived But we survived. My heart allowed itself to grieve. I threw myself into my job and my schooling and my children. And I survived.  My ex was very angry. I…